Some Pictures

Birthing Center // Snowy Day

Market in Old Town

Train Station in Czech Countryside

Prague Castle

Accomplishments

When I got here, I could only place myself by what I could see around me. When we’d first walk places, I didn’t know which direction we were heading or what we would see next. But now, the map of Prague in my mind is expanding. Now I can stand on my street corner and know that if I walk ten minutes North I will reach Old Town Square, and if I head South, I’ll find my school. And if I get on the number 24 tram heading West, I’ll arrive at Wenceslas Square in about 7 minutes. I imagine it like in Coraline, when she walks around the entire world as it unfolds in front of her only to end up back at her house. This corner of the planet is beginning to unfold around me, becoming smaller and more managable.

            Every thing you do in a new place is a task. Learning the public transportation system, finding a place to buy towels, buying a phone and prepaid plan, ordering off of a menu, searching for a post office. I feel so accomplished anytime I figure out something new. And usually, trying to figure things out leads to discoveries. Lauren and I were trying to find a store near Old Town the other night and emerged out of a metro stop to a stunning view of Prague Castle along the river. It is the most beautiful piece of this city I’ve seen yet and it feels good to have found it accidentally. And after three days of my Czech language class, I can now successfully ask people for directions and respond to pleasantries instead of staring at them blankly. While walking down the street today I could pick out bits and pieces of conversations and advertisements. Nothing I could make any sense of but it’s a start. At least I can tell people “Sorry, I don’t understand,” and ask them if they speak English now.

            More exciting news: my weekends are filing up quickly with trips! My friends and I are dedicating this weekend to exploring and sightseeing in Prague. Taking a tour of Prague Castle and visiting some museums are on the top of my list. The weekend after that is a group wine tasting trip to Moravia planned by the school. The next Friday we will be visiting a glass blowing factory where we get to make our own art. And I’ve booked a trip to Warsaw for the weekend after that. In the works are trips to Belgium, Dresden, Krakow, Greece, and Istanbul. I am meeting my parents in Amsterdam and visiting Bruges and Brussels with them in March. And I’m hoping to also make a quick trip to Rome to see my friends studying there. I’m still having a hard time imagining being away from people back home for four months, but seeing my calendar fill up is keeping my spirits high.

            This has been a fairly positive post so I want to go ahead and ruin that by complaining about the coffee situation. We were hoping to pass a coffee shop on the way to school on our first day that we would be able to frequent in the mornings. When we didn’t see one, we asked our Resident Director if he knew of any. He informed us that coffee is not a big thing here, and people do not typically gather or hang out in cafes. Espresso is popular, but drinking a 24 oz. coffee is not. This is devastating. Beer is, as you may have guessed, the most popular drink here, and usually the cheapest. This may be good for my caffeine addiction but I’m not sure it will be for anything else. I am not complaining about the availability and price of beer, but I will definitely appreciate giant coffees and polar pops and cheap water more when I get home.

            

I am about to meet friends and check out a Jazz bar off of Wenceslas square, so that's all for now. Nashledanou! 

Rough Night

I know I wrote a short blog post earlier today but seeing as I can't sleep and I'm feeling quite overwhelmed from the rest of my day, I thought I'd vent by writing another. It's been a rough night. After we arrived, I showered and took a quick nap, only to awake to find a whole slew of tiny black bugs crawling around under my pillow and blankets. I asked the front desk if they could switch my room; they said they wouldn't be able to until tomorrow morning but they'd change the sheets for me. Then I met the rest of the group for dinner. We walked through Old Town square and lots of small side streets lined with shops and cafes. The spires of Prague Castle were lit up yellow against the dark sky. We ate at a nondescript cafe/bar in the corner of a walkway off of the square. They had a buffet style dinner set up for us payed for by USAC. After dinner, the staff led us on another short walk to Wenceslas Square, a center for shopping and nightlife. The activities director of our program offered to show whoever was interested to a 90's disco bar. Most people opted out, everyone was so tired from the trip. I took note of where it was though so I could check it out another time. We all split up and wondered around on their own, finding pubs or food. Lauren and I ventured back to the apartments to find a local pub around home. We succeeded (in both finding our way home on the tram and finding a bar), and local it was. Everyone stopped mid conversation and stared at us when we walked in. We tried to order a couple of beers but the bartender didn't speak any English. A man standing at the bar heard us and had to help because he was the only person who spoke English. I couldn't help feeling like they were mocking us the whole time. The crowd was a little intimidating but we felt accomplished. Upon my return to the hotel, I found more bedbugs after the sheet change. So I packed a bag of stuff and headed to Lauren's apartment down the street to sleep on her futon for the night, or maybe the next few, depending on when they can get me a new room. I'm sitting in her room now and I've already tried to fall asleep once. It's about 3 am here and I should be much more tired than I am. But my mind is racing and I can't turn it off. Thinking back four months ago until now and then thinking about spending that same amount of time in this strange place is really making my stomach and throat hurt. I hope this gets easier. I'm sure once I move into my apartment and hopefully get out of any bug infested beds I'll be more comfortable.

Czeching In!

Ahoj (this means "Hello" in Prague so naturally whenever someone says it I feel the urge to reply in a pirate voice and add "matey" to the end). Also, don't worry, I promise I only have a few more Czech/check puns to use then I will stop.

Thursday night I had a nice dinner at Morton's Steakhouse with Mom, Matt, and Peter. Friday, we headed to Tavern on Rush for a good brunch before Mom and Matt dropped me off at O'Hare. As nervous as I am right now, I feel so lucky and so happy.

My flights went smoothly after a two hour delay on the runway in Chicago. Flying in the snow storm made me a little uneasy at first but it was peaceful and beautifully eerie to be above those heavy, dark clouds. The fog was so thick landing in Frankfurt that I couldn't see anything until just moments before we hit the ground. Once in Frankfurt, our small group from Chicago met up with a lot of the other students in our program and caught a connecting flight to Prague. We met our Resident Director there and took a bus to our apartments. As punishment for being one of the last kids to sign up, I was placed in an apartment further away from the others and the school and for the first couple of nights will be in a hotel nearby. I'd be a lot less bitter about this had I packed less; I'm really regretting the amount of luggage I brought.

It is snowing in Prague, and driving over the Vlatava River on our way into Old Town made me so excited to explore my new city.

Fare Thee Well and Forget Me Not

Tomorrow marks the beginning of the biggest adventure of my life to date. Until now, studying abroad for four months has been an exciting and distant thought. But it has fast approached and the past few days of saying goodbye's, or rather, see you later's, have been harder than expected. The friends I've made in Chicago over the past year and a half are some of the greatest people I've ever met. And my friends and family at home have been the best support system I could ask for. This trip has already made me more grateful for the people in my life and I haven't even left the country yet. As much as I know I will miss everyone, I can't wait to meet the people I'll be living and traveling and studying with in Prague. I am excited to open myself up to every adventure and experience waiting there.

My flight doesn't leave Chicago until Friday morning, but tomorrow I'll head up with my mom and stepdad to meet my boyfriend for a nice dinner and then stay in a hotel near O'Hare. I'll fly to Frankfurt and from there transfer to Prague, the Mistress of Bohemia. And from there, adventure awaits.

I will conclude this post with two beautiful poems by Czech writer, Rainer Maria Rilke. The first, important because I know my heart will grow used to its farthest spaces in the perfect terror of the unknown and because I know that is the only way to grow. 

Ignorant Before the Heavens of My Life

Ignorant before the heavens of my life, I stand and gaze in wonder. Oh the vastness of the stars. Their rising and descent. How still. As if I didn't exist. Do I have any share in this? Have I somehow dispensed with their pure effect? Does my blood's ebb and flow change with their changes? Let me put aside every desire, every relationship except this one, so that my heart grows used to its farthest spaces. Better that it live fully aware, in the terror of its stars, than as if protected, soothed by what is near.  The second, an inspiration to overcome anything in the way of wonder. As Once the Winged Energy of Delight As once the winged energy of delight carried you over childhood's dark abysses, now beyond your own life build the great arch of unimagined bridges. Wonders happen if we can succeed in passing through the harshest danger; but only in a bright and purely granted achievement can we realize the wonder. To work with Things in the indescribable relationship is not too hard for us; the pattern grows more intricate and subtle, and being swept along is not enough. Take your practiced powers and stretch them out until they span the chasm between two contradictions... For the god wants to know himself in you. dobrou noc!

Cincinnati to Kansas City

My post-christmas trip to Cincinnati to visit my boyfriend and meet his parents resulted in a whole lot of wonderful anti productivity as laying in bed and watching movies took up a majority of our time. But I did learn some crucial Polish phrases from his family, namely "I love cereal," and "Please buy me these shoes."And I finally tried Skyline Chili and Graeter's Ice Cream, both of which my friends at school haven't stopped talking about since I met them (Why are so many of my friends from Cincinnati?). I am hoping my exposure to Peter and his family speaking Polish will help me a little when I get to the Czech Republic in two weeks. Learning Polish with him is a lot more fun than teaching myself a different Slovak language so I'm just hoping the alphabet and sounds will help me out once I'm in Prague.

From Cincinnati I drove home for a couple days then headed to Kansas City with my mom for a work trip- she works, and I entertain myself around the city. I downloaded some Intelligence squared debates to listen to during my 20+ hours of driving over the past two weeks, which I highly recommend. Here's the website.They have some good podcasts on iTunes too if you ever feel like being productive while driving. 

The first night in Kansas City, my mom and I had dinner with one of her friends on the Plaza. One of the things KC is most famous for are the lights on the Plaza during the holidays. I hadn't seen them before and they didn't disappoint. Every building is lined meticulously with thousands of lights. The Plaza really is a beautiful place to visit, I'm always happy to keep my mom company on these trips.

My mom and her coworkers finally took me to The Peanut, the oldest, divest bar in Kansas City for some beer and hot wings the next night. And they weren't kidding when they told me they are the best hot wings they've ever had. The room was just a small square, with all kinds of KC relics on the wall and so crowded. I can't believe it's taken this many trips to KC to finally visit this bar. 

Now that I'm back from Kansas City it's time to start packing. And the more I look at the suitcase and carry-on I have to live out of for four months, the better at procrastinating I become. There really isn't too much to do before I leave, but I feel like I'm so unprepared. I just want to get there and get started. 

A New Poem for a New Blog

Say of the Sky 


We are the doe-eyed receivers of this world of woe so

We stow away in the guttural sounds of gnawing.

Oceans pour weight onto waiting sand,

Beams of glaring sun cut into cavernous land,
And you and I feel the gripping haunt of mountains and climb to the barren top.

All is punishment when all is the aftermath of ruinous love.

But say of my heart that it is yearning and

Say you're only going to stray,

I'll say of the snow it is shining as it suffocates, decay

Is the only sure sign of the cycle,

A promise that hearts still beat.

Say of my soul it knows magic as day becomes day becomes day,

And the sky in all its unknowing is either an obstacle or a display

But the beauty of it is that it is blue.

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